Alone time

I was just sitting at my dining room table staring at the calendar I have hanging on the wall. Today I wonder at how the days seem to all mesh together and yet move so slow at times. It's been a long week. Ryan has been gone for most of it, and between unrested children and rainy weather we've been inside a bit too much. Today we delivered birthday invites for Samuel's birthday, just to get out of the house. It was pouring rain. Needless to say we got wet, some of us more than others. One of the homes we stopped at had a huge puddle in the front walk. Sam didn't even hesitate, splosh splash. He was all grins until it dawned on him how much colder it was when soaking wet. He immediately suggested we go home and luckily we had only one invite left to deliver.

I haven't been feeling very well lately, but I don't mention it to complain. It has just made for a very long week and I do hope it passes quickly. Unfortunately, it's nausea and pregnancy related I'm sure. So chances are it's here to stay and hang out until this little miss is born. But the good news is it's not too bad and I can function and go about life as I normally would. I just feel yucky. I never got sick again with my other pregnancies but things have been a bit stressful lately. Then, add in some sick, tired kiddos and a husband with a very busy week keeping him away from home and things start going gray around the edges. I feel a bit like I have a little black rain cloud hovering over my head. It turns grey at night when I get to rest and relax a bit but the threat of rain intensifies when one of the boys wakes up coughing or upset about something. I am glad the week is coming to a close. Sometimes I worry the world is passing me by, and sometimes I wish I could hide somewhere while it passes. I am glad my rainy days are only slight colds and stressful decisions, for that I feel blessed.

Sam's birthday is in a week or so and he's already told me he wants a shark cake. So our party is going to be shark themed and I have shark cupcakes in the works. Birthdays are so exciting when you are young and so I hope to make it special for him. I can't really believe my Sammy is going to be 4. I guess I have another week or so to let it sink in.


A little silver lining:

One morning this week I walked into the boys room to get everyone up and after I said good morning to him, Sam smiled and responded enthusiastically with, "I knew you would come!"

Because Ryan has been away a lot his arrival home is pretty special. Every time he walks through the door, Russell will yell in a very low voice, "DAAAAAAAAAAAA!" and giggle as he runs to him. It's so funny, especially since he will do it to him even when he leaves the room for a few minutes and then comes back.

After announcing to me at dinner time that he did not like what I had made him. Sam then told me that it was a good thing I had put onions in it and then proceeded to eat all of the onions out of it.

While folding laundry this afternoon Sam came in to see what I was doing and asked what I was folding. It was his bed sheet I explained. "Oh, thank you so much Mom!" He said as he threw his arms around my neck in a big hug.

I had some time to finish reading Persuasion. I've seen the movie, but never read the book until now. Loved it!