Oh today

Today was a very, very long day. Nobody seemed to be happy. I had a moment where I considered hiding in the bathtub behind 2 closed doors. But I would have been able to hear the whining still, so I didn't linger on the thought for too long.

It's days like today that shake my gratitude snow globe up a bit, creating a blurry white storm where its hard to see the blessings that abound.

For me, it's always when I'm feeling bad for myself that I really lose focus. Is it possible to be fully aware of how truly blessed you are and still feel self pity? Maybe. I mean, that does sound horrid doesn't it? How very contradicting, and yet that's how I felt for a while today. I must have been wavering between the two feelings so often that I began to think I was feeling them both at once, though now that I think about it I'm quite certain it's not possible to mix the two.

I am grateful today for something Samuel said to me.

He asked "Mom, would you do something so nice for me right now? It would make me so happy and I would be nice to everyone and you if you did it. Plus, I would give you lots of hugs and a kiss. It would make me so happy K?"

I thought to myself -Gee, I must be pretty ornery today if he feels like he has to preface his requests like that. Attitude adjustment needed.

Interested in what he wanted...

Juice, in a cup.

Oh how I love this kid. (even on hard days:)